Creating a gesture to break – imagine the “breakers” resulted from the virus infection in the 17th century Dutch tulips – in representative conventions in terms of the socio-culturally, economically, politically, geographically and ethically accepted and normalized drives, a pleasure in breaking (accuracy, perfection, substance, unity, success, or one entity) has become the ‘real’; a living-dean and/or a ghost. is a performance work in collaboration with a choreographer and a dancer, Naomie Pieter whom I met in Amsterdam. In the Alexandre Duma’s novel the black tulip symbolizes our human obsession and desire to obtain something perfect and beautiful. It reminds me of the idea of value, global trade, legacies of post-colonialism, the act of collecting and development of dominant European-centric gazes. In other words, I may call it as ‘devouring eye’ at the exotica so called the Others. I have learnt that Dumas’ grandmother was the black slave in Haiti and was shot in Curacao where Haiti is just across the ocean. This work consists of 2 parts in different locations: The first part shows the black slavery freedom monument which faces the open sea and wailing waves. The second part which is a work-in-progress shows a beautiful courtyard in the one of post-colonial architectures in the city of Curacao. Naomie and I take both roles of ghosts and exorcists who encounter and confront our own dreams, demons, fears, angers and temporalities in order to bring the “breakers” within our own socio-cultural and political histories, and personal and collective memories.